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Monday, 30 July 2018

post-meeting the sv

Assalamualaikum

Hi everyone. I just met my supervisor with Nasir. She's so funny ooemmjiii I'll forever love her! (jot that in mind aliaa so even when she's angry at you, you gotta read this again and love her the same!). Okay, so...umm.. apparently she's just asking about.. how our fyp going.

Not bad, but I won't say it's going smoothly either. Half-half. Kekkekeke >_<

I hope the layer is clear enough for you to see.
I hope it's not just hexane and water.
I hope that the betel oil is in there too.

She also conveyed a little bit of what I called as 'tazkirah'. You know, just to boost our spirit up. Also commenting about our behavior. She said Nasir has become more matured now compared to last semester, not childish anymore. I guess they might have had a private talk before because I didn't understand a single thing about that luls.

Until she talked about me, about my behavior? ummm... *damn, my heart almost popped* 

She said that I need to be more 'chill' XD kah!

Perhaps I don't even realized how I was doing before because I think , well I think I was 'chill' enough. Nope? Tapi memang aku jenis terlebih serius pun sampai orang nak bergurau pun takut hihiks :D

But anyways, I don't want to talk about how much of a 'serious person' I am because that also depends on who I am with. The same goes to all of you right?

In term of this, it's all just respect.

P/s: She actually wanted me to publish a paper, but I need to make a poster about my research first and join a conference to present that. I don't want to believe it, yet. Just, why me instead of her other supervisees? Why not all of us? T.T Ooo, what have I put myself into now?

I need my parents. Nak balik ah camni -.-

Saturday, 28 July 2018

If boredom could kill,

you might be reading an entry written by a dead person already.

I am so bored.


Gosh, I'm so bored you got no idea!
If I don't have any drop of shame left in me
like this little fella over here...

I would have done something stupid already.

Already did tbh... I activated my instagram... and then accidentally made it public.
I didn't mean to do that, the button is totally at different place now and everything is just confusing.

Oh well, look at me blaming the universe as if none of it was my mistake 😂 hahaha.

But no worries, I'll shut it down again.

Should I?

Btw did my sister really follow you???????? whoever you are?!

Anyways, I'll write again tonight, insyaAllah. I don't have anything to do so I just can't wait to be in the lab again tomorrow. Spending the weekend here without any assignment *coughs* is the most boring thing ever. If you call that a 'thing' but whatever, I AM SO BORED!

Thursday, 26 July 2018

excuse me, i cAN't sLeeP


I SERIOUSLY HATE FALLING ASLEEP WHEN I DON'T EVEN WANT TO SLEEP YET! 

To be precise, I hate it everytime I fall asleep in the evening *and then wake up to total darkness. At night! Whaaaaaasattt?! It feels as if I've done something wrong for the whole day. Wuhuhuuhu😧

Well yesterday was one of those days...

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I was in lab doing the extraction since 8 in the morning bruh and only left at almost 5 pm. Whatever 😒 I'd never been that long in lab tak keluar2 lansung, what I know is my body was obviously exhausted. Alsooooo it's my first day getting a visit from Aunt Flo. Hee hee.. >____<

You know that cramp, it would have gone unnoticeable had I been lying comfortably (on bed, procrastinating), but when you're stucked in lab and just watching those condenser doing its work... for almost 9 hrs?!

the pain was real. I couldn't take it anymore... #weak

but yeaaaaaahhh...just deal with it.

Hats off to all the girls who experience excruciating pain every month. You guys are one of a kind. Not moiiii~! Well of course not me, I'm weak. Pfft 😜

Wednesday, 18 July 2018

I apologize in advance!


I just realized that I don’t really want people to come here mwahaha 😂 
wth was I doing last night...

All I can say is

Just.

Forget.

It.

Sometimes my hands work faster than my brain too.
*rolls eyes at self*

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We often forget that this world doesn’t revolve around us.

What’s happening to you doesn’t necessarily mean other people know it too.
You can’t expect them to be in your shoes and then be all upset when they can’t.

It’s true that some battles are just not for us to fight.

We’ll be okay.

Please. I know I’m not the only one feeling scared right now.

🙂

P/s : aku rasa aku ni kena stop main internet dah.
Eiii geramnya dgn diri sendiri. 👊🏻

Tuesday, 17 July 2018

Wifi decided to go kaput since last week

so I only get to post this today.

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Was lectured by my mum yesterday. Because of... oh well, my attitude :’)

We planned on going to KB but I refused tetiba lol. Ko dh kenapa?


I thought she’s gonna lecture some more on our way to KB, because there were only me, her, and Abah. Oh what a perfect time! Buuuuuuut nope. She literally changed the subject. And my mood as well. Have I mentioned, that I just wanna marry (someone like) my mum? She’s so understanding ya Allah. My dad only followed her lead everytime, if she’s lecturing me, then my father will continue doing the same thing -.- once she has cooled down, Abah also does the same lol. So yerp, I can’t make her mad.


Not like some of you who (are sooooo lucky) can go to the other parent when the other one gets mad. Yes, I’m talking to you : Zara, Zarith, and Zac. And Aidan?


I just hate myself sometimes. I feel like I don’t deserve to be in this family so beautiful. Why the third daughter is always a weirdo? Urghhh. Eh hellu pulis, is my period coming or what?!



#13July2018

I am really scared of my heart ahahahha.

But no, I’m not kidding!


Sometimes my feeling towards orange kitty just went out the window. I wonder if he too, felt the same.


Like, there’s still a huge part in me where I don’t want to get attached to anyone.


Ottokeng -..-


Oh I know, I know! That just means I am not ready for any relationship. Weheeeeee~! But still... my level of ‘liking him’ is quite nonsense: literally muting everybody else’s notification except for one. Except one :)


So when I logged out from messenger, if there’s one red dot


like this

I knew it’s orange kitty! 

Sumpah aku kecewa kalau tu orang lain.



#14July2018


Congratulation Belgium on winning the third place!

I started watching Are You Human Too. Hehe. That drama is so gooooood you should give it a go if you got time to kill! Kinda unrealistic tho because how come the hero is actually a robot? 

Takkan ending nanti heroine kahwin dengan robot?


That robot Nam Sin is so sweet uhuhuhu I kenot I kenot 😥 we humans just don’t deserve a creature like that. End of story. He’s like a puppy somehow. Very obedient, and handsome (what do you expect from the lead actor?) and then suddenly develops feeling dekat heroine. Ehheyyy, come on bruh, ko sendiri pun konfius suis mana tetiba buat hal smpai jadi ada feeling camtu and you still say you’re not a human?!


Geojismaaaaal!



#15July2018

There’s nothing to write plus the wifi at home was not good (read: everybody plissssssss get ready to gali kubur nak tanam dia) Plus, my mum didn’t remember my birthday anyway so my day just went by like usual.

That was it until 7 am (excuse me, every hour counts ok >_<), when we received a voice note in the family ws group. It’s Kakna’s little family singing happy birthday song to me aww man 😂 bocor rahsia. I bet they’re all otw to school hehe.


Then Kakyen posted a photo of me from ancient age ago dunno when on her ws story (and probably on ig story as well). Soooooo Kakna being the busybody that she is, said this:



By the time I received that, she threatened to post that on fb. Umm...did I just say ‘threatened’? Did I feel like it’s a threat?


HAHAHHAHAHA. Not at all.


I was much cuter in high school anyway 😜 I mean yeah before I joined kawad kaki and all that *blows nails* (uhh anyways before my schoolmates come and spill the bean, let me tell the truth... well I only joined kawad kaki for outdoor activity, nothing else) But still cute hahahhaa whatever I won’t listen to anyone saying I’m not cute. Booo~!


And then there was also my not-so-little sister who
brought mocking to another level.

P/s: I'll try to find your birthday on botol budu. Uolls tunggu oke.


#17July2018


My writing pattern is weird too oh god I just don’t know what to do with myself. 😑

Goodbye! have a gooooood day ahead!

Saturday, 7 July 2018

Farewell BPP

Alhamdulillah, finally I can say that I'm done being a 'somebody' for this organization, like for reeeeaaaaallll this time!
*cringe* looking at my own words -.-
As usual, our very own program is only Tekno Da'ie. Each semester it will be conducted by BPP and I have joined three sessions! 

Unfortunately I didn't learn anything at all. I think my head just can't keep up with the teacher. I swear, I still have no idea how Adobe Photoshop works. 

(But shhh, don't tell anyone ok 😂)

Oooooh guys, there is actually one story I wanna tell about that program...

This semester I helped the AJK makanan to order some food for the contestants. We went to the cafe the night before that event. The usual~ Buuuuuut, what made me unhappy was that the owner asked me to follow him to the seller’s house. At 11 pm. Eh whaaaaat? Can’t he go there on his own? Like, y'know I could just list down all the things that I wanted. The same procedure everytime we order foods for events.

Seriously man, I really couldn’t see the reason behind all that. I was frantically looking for Redzuan while having serious discussion with my junior about that, but he's not answering his phone. Demnnn~ kid where you at? 😑

So, I agreed.

I know it was crazy. I was crazy.

Seriously aliaa kau giler ke apa ikut lelaki malam-malam buta?!

I was worried about my junior, and myself. 😭. No doubt, if something bad happened to both of us, I’d haunt everybody on Earth.

He was nice though.

But then all men are _________.

Eh? *what do you think?

Sorrayyyyy, I'm just kidding hahaha. You guys are individually awesome ok ^^

Tapi serius laa ni, jangan buat benda bodoh macam aku. 😒

No matter who they are, how nice they look, those who brought ladies out at night, I think... it smells fishy somewhere whatever the reason is. Oh well, lesson learnt. Hands down I could say that was the stupidest thing (out of all the stupidest things) I had ever done in my whole life.

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Moving on, maybe it's not too late to say that I am forever grateful to always be paired up with good people. Last year it was Justin Bieber (yerppp Haikal), this year it is this little bro, Redzuan. Truthfully, we have no chemistry at all, me with all of them... nope. Nothing. Zero. (if there's chemistry between us, I'd have asked him to change that photo for kalam pimpinan, see, it looks like he's in a toilet. No offense~) Maybe I'm a little bit more comfortable with JB but, pfft, if you know what that means... 🙄

Once, he asked me to make one poster for *apa dia aku tak ingat*, I was so busy at the moment so I didn't say that I could do it. And then less than an hour later, I finished one poster.

(You know... me. Sometimes when people ask what my hobby is, I say it's making posters.)

He was a bit shocked at how fast I made that one. Then, *oh guys, this just broke my heart. He said that it always took him at least 5 hours to finish one poster. One design. Or anything related.

I was busy so I wasn’t thinking much about it until now, I realize that all these times whenever other pimpinan chose my design over his, it must have broken his heart, hurt his pride or something I don’t even know!

Who would have known how much effort he put to come out with one poster?! Sampai lima jam, are you kidding me?!

To me, designing is simple because, umm... I mean my poster is very simple anyway. I am never satisfied (or let alone feel proud) with any of my 'masterpiece' no matter what people say.

Anyways. Ok, relax~

I hope he never took whatever I did/said to heart hehe. I understand that we have this age barrier *alahh setahun je pun, and why on earth did you stop calling me Kak Aliaa?!*, I don’t know too why things weren’t that smooth at first but.. umm kay, maybe I was just too mean.

*sebab awal-awal tipu lah kalau aku cakap aku ikhlas naik jadi pimpinan semula herher XD

He obviously wasn't happy about that too.

Yo kid, I know I stole your girl's position and I'm sorry. But please remember that I do appreciate every effort you did to make our bureau looked like it didn't lack anything. Arigatou gozaimas~

So, farewell BPP. It's been two good years :)

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And also Jawatankuasa Teman ☺ of course. How can I forget that?!

Being in this organisation is one of the best thing that have ever happened to me in UMK. It's small, but a responsibility is still a responsibility.

I still can't believe that a few months back I had to take the same position once again. I was scared at first. Everybody was new and younger than me, so I thought 'how am I suppose to befriend these people, they're so foreign oh God please help me'.

Of course He heard that hehe.

Thank you for making everything easy for me and I'm so sorry for my mean side lol. Especially to the nydp.

They're so cuuuuute 😂 
ah yes, there's no me because I took this photo. 
For the last time :)

Believe me when I say that interrupting people in the middle of their own chaos and business could never be easier than this one.  😂 Thank you, for being very welcoming. They are the best.

Thank you ❤

Thursday, 5 July 2018

Quick update

Dah habis semua papers! Alhamdulillah ^^

Pagi tadi Forest Resources Econs! Subject killer sumpah tak tipu. Her her...
tawakkal jer mampu sekarang.

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That was last Monday, Idk why they suddenly wanted to gather. Rindu kott 😉

I know I have many friends, yeh yeh... but if I’m being dead honest rn, I just don’t know who can be trusted. Like, for real. I always trust the wrong person lol, which end up making me feel like shit *yap I'm not gonna sugarcoat that 😌

Sebab tu aku down giler haritu.

Satu jer nak cakap, aku tak boleh brain betul orang yang jenis “takpe takpe 😊” kat depan kita then belakang kemain mengata. Fuhh...

Yes, you can go away. Arigatou~
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Me, ranting on my blog is a normal thing, no need to worry. I mean, that's one of the reasons why this blog is still active. You're just too sweet, I don't deserve that hahaha XD

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JT ada penyerahan jawatan esok. Petang esok ^^ tak sabar nak tengok siapa ganti ni weeee!

Bye!