A little bit late for new year

Assalamualaikum

Heyyo guys!

I sat for my last paper yesterday.
Forest Mensuration & Survey.

Alhamdulillah, semester five : DONE ✔✔️

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I think.


I screwed up my finals.


Yes.

It was the worst. Enough said.


✋🏻

Emm, sorry to start with such depressing notes.


But yeah all good things come to an end.


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First, let’s talk about my carry mark for Pulp & Paper Technology which is not good at all. To get an A, I need to achieve 100% during finals ottokaeeeng. Ha! not a joke, man. Last time I got a full mark was during standard one, subjek pendidikan seni. 🤭

An A minus? I wish.

This cup of tea doing yoga is so cute! 

and not related at all 😂

Anyways, me, thinking that I still had a chance to get an A, I did everything I could in order to not worsen my upcoming result. I frantically tried to finish and master all the lecture notes, tutorials, past year questions and read more from the internet. (Honestly tho... it's not like I don't understand what the lecturer has been teaching this whole semester, it's just I couldn't remember anything anymore, sort of went blank T.T This actually happens to all subjects but it's very obvious when it comes to Pulp & Paper. Aaaand... I'm okay) I digested it all until I felt so wasted. 😪

Btw in the middle of my intense revisions, do you think it just went smoothly without any distraction? dear god nooooo. I kept on wanting to do stupid, inappropriate things HAHAHA (this happens all the time okies!) 🙈 p/s : please anyone, if you're free you're invited to come and give me some talks on Priorities Of Life. Tqvm.

I kept saying to myself “It’s okay Aliaa, you’ll be fine, you'll be fine. Those are just syaitonnn talking in your head. Don't listen!" and when I felt soooooo close to clean *the already clean* Blackey’s keyboard, which was very nonsense you know at that time, before study week takde pulak eh kau nak bersihkan keyboard bagai ehehe tagunee >_< (but I did the most nonsense thing during study week, so...)

I sang Hambamu chorus to myself. *jk I didn't sing! 😂 I had no intention to ruin anybody’s mood, oh heck, even the frogs would go quiet if they heard me singing! (bcos they're dead by the time I opened my mouth.)*

And I realized that the whole part was actually a doa itself. Yesss I love that song now, it’s my fight song! XD

The day before this crucial paper, me and Cuya took turns explaining each topic to each others and tbh I guess we would easily qualify to be the interim lecturers (replacing dr. Boon) for this subject ihiks  >_<  OK jk doctor if you read this, I repeat I AM JUST KIDDING. I still don’t understand why the fabric on fourdrinier machine is called wire *like I legit thinking it is that wayar yang halus tu, nothing close to something like fabric* #overthinkingsomethingsosimple #whyamIalwayslikethat??

You see guys, I could actually work well in pressure hoho. Thank God!

because I used the same stationaries
that I used during finals last semester >_<



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Otw to the exam hall on 31st December 2017, I saw this huge, black cat walking arrogantly in the rain (FREAKING WALKING IN THE RAIN!!!) and it somehow made my day. It was the cat that peed in my pail when I first came to Jeli. So yeah since he appeared to be a 'gangster' like that, I’d no gut to say anything... or open up our old story (not that I speak to any cat though but you know~) It made me looked somewhat weak holding my gray umbrella at the moment. 😐

Ok so where were we just now?

I was worrying about Pulp & Paper but alhamdulillah I slayed that one, I knew and I was confident about it. What I didn't know was that other subjects were bloody killers as well. Wood & Non-Wood Chemistry was a total badass, then Research Methodology and Forest Mensuration were kinda like Lord Voldemort + Snow White’s stepmother, and Forest Harvesting Tech. uhh not bad I guess, but still evil (evilness level : Ursula).

Only Arabic, oooh my oh my oh my~ Arabic was a PURE angel with a glowing halo! I'm gonna love you forever! 👼🏻

I really, really hope that I’ll get a grade that is bearable-for-the-eyes-to-see despite of all those terrible papers *aminn*. Allah won’t put me through all these shenanigans if they don’t bring me any good rite? I’m holding on to that.

Moving on!

I should stop posting instastories about epl now, my guy ‘friends’ kept saying hello through DM.. haishh :(

And gosh...

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHO MADE THE SCHEDULES LIKE THAT WE SERIOUSLY NEED TO TALK 😡 (both exam and football schedules). Malam exam ada game, ada game jer malam exam. Plus! I’ve just discovered a live-streaming website and it brings me no good, I swear *it tickles me writing about this tehee 🤭 I even watched other teams’ matches (read: Chelsea, Liverpool, Man City, Arsenal, Spurs). During my finals.

I'm doomed.

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My new year resolution is still the same as last year, I want to be a better person who is always guided by Him, and also a good daughter for my parents.

Also, I want to start taking a proper care of my right hand. Yeaa never mentioned about it before, but...

take a look.

Yeewwwwww aliaa why does it become like that?

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Ooo I don't knowwwww, don't eww my hand guys~

I have been suffering from this since I was in matric. Then it got worse when I entered university. I thought it's going to be okay by times, but nope. It doesn't.

And that is how it ends up now. To those who say that I do not apply the cream given by doctors, yes I don't! *do stare at Annur and Fatin if they're with me, ok?* please guys~ it only made my poor hand become even worse idk why. I already use cetaphil replacing my shower gel but it doesn’t make any change either.

And then, being in my current forestry studies doesn’t help obviously, like, I can’t tell my course mates that I can’t do this and that just because my hand is sensitive, can I? How weak will I look if I do that?! 😒 I already look so soft to them, at least lemme do some works that some girls out there can't do! *umm what is it again? lol 😂 oooh cut down a tree using a chainsaw.

I still remember that I only stopped when it hurt wayyy too much, which more often than not, involved blood. I was very cruel back then Allahu *cries* Ok so resolution number two: be good to my right hand!

Actually I have so many resolutions, but idk, I have no reason to write the long list here (unless you could help me achieve some of them, ohhh let me know 😆 hehe).

Goodbye ^^ I'm going home for my semester break kejap lagi so I don't know when will I be updating again. Gonna miss you a lot.

Pp/s : Abah and Ma will arrive in 5 minutes! See, the spoiled princess that is me does not go home by bus/taxi cause she depends on her parents to fetch her to and from uni. You can blame them for this luls, my forever favorite people in the world, nothing compares ❤

Hi L! Or is it El?

Hi. It's me, the laziest blogger alive.

 

Dear my junior Miss L, max love for all the designs that you emailed me!!!! Will definitely use one for my nephew's aqiqah invitation card, which the date is not known yet. Hehe. 

 

Oh I've never talked about my exam results in this blog because... I think I'm done with my studies lol. No, actually why did I even choose forestry? Why didn't I choose chemical engineering? Or tesl? Whyyyyyy? *sorry to begin by being emo like this, woman you know* Geoscience is famous here btw, you'll love it.

Sure, I've started to get the hang of this thingy... really? Nope, idk. My only advice to all the young people out there, don't be like me. Just do and choose what you love. Yes kids, you can always teach yourself to grow fond of something that you don't like, it only takes times. Aaaaaand it sucks. 

My result was not bad (I think) : the pointer was 3.51 and yep it declined a loooooooooot compared to the semesters before which made me a little disappointed (except semester 1 because I got a bit carried away). Also, I know exactly what went wrong tehee XD

• I ignored my list of do's and don'ts.
• my room was so far from my JT friends' (angels sent from above all of them, I'm not even kidding) and it resulted in me being far from the mosque, usrah, ceramah agama and all that. The worst, perhaps far from Him also.
• my excuses are so lame, aren't they? Kah!

Wukay, maybe that's all. For my co-curicular activities I don't think they're burdensome enough because I was much busier during the third semester and was doing just fine in all the courses enrolled. Based on my 'excuses' above, I think that the second one really hit me. Hard. Huhu. I really did abuse my poor soul. T.T oh my god..

don't you ever do that..

Fourth semester, hmmmmm I won't blame anyone...or anything. Of course. Well you'd meet a few people with manners down the drain (who somehow affect your carry mark as well) just like my academic advisor said. But eventually, that was all my fault. Your fault. Basically you can't blame anyone but yourself. If people ever complained that the subjects were harder and more complicated.. lol idk, every semester I learned something new and later, by hook or by crook I'd have to manage them properly. Get used to them no matter how hard they were. I'm sure you are like that too.

Didn't reach 3.75 is fine actually. Like during the third semester, if you've been reading this blog then you know that I was super nervous because of Statistics, I even vowed that I'd be so so so grateful if I got 3.2 and above. Hahaha. But since I achieved almost a perfect gpa, suddenly a 3.51 for last semester looked soooooo low. 

It's not dean's listed anymoreeeeeee wuhuhhuhuhu..

Some people might say that pointer is not that important. I know. I know. We need powerful softskills, good attitude, blah blah blah, etc just insert whatever you want. In my opinion it is just for our own satisfaction lahh to achieve the best...soooo.. I hope you get my point there, tqvm.

What I want to tell you is that it's not fun getting obsessed over the cgpa because it makes me really sad when I don't achieve my target. So..just learn to be grateful. You'll definitely get more. Don't be sad. Don't be grumpy. It's not cute xP Goodbye!

P/s : L, I hope to hear from you soon! (Or maybe we'll just meet at college?) I think you don't get my reply because it goes to the junk instead -.- so here it is! I can't believe I actually made this public hahhaha. Xoxo!

Dear sister, you are pretty.

Hey peeps! So, on Monday people were going ga-ga over their sister or brother or maybe their own PT3 results, right? Straight A's or not, people still posted what they felt necessary in insta and facebook. Whatever floats their boats.

And my little sister?

She doesn't get straight A's. But tell you what, I'm just so proud with her *I cry once I see her exam slip* sobs sobs..ahh tipu! Aku tak nangis pun. Hekhek >_<

8 A's. Out of 10.

That's more than okay, Anis. I don't have to post anything 'bout you, do I? Hikhik XD

Congratulation.

I want to raise her to be as pure as possible. Yeah I'm an older sister.

No facebook, no whatsapp, no instagram, no wechat, no twitter. Wow! Who on earth doesn't have one of those 'thingy' these days? Ridiculous~

No, it's not ridiculous.

My sister doesn't.

Don't feel insecure just because you're the youngest. Don't feel sad just because you do not get into a sekolah agama like KakNa, Kakyen, and me. You're loved for who you are, baby sis. Don't compare who's prettier than who... though I never answered whenever you ask me "Am I pretty?"

I hate that question seriously. I can't even say that in front of a mirror -_-

But you are beautiful. :) very beautiful inside and out.

Ermm, do I have to say that I love you... in my blog? Nahhh~that'll be so uncool. Lol!

Can't wait to see you tomorrow >_<