A little bit late for new year

Assalamualaikum

Heyyo guys!

I sat for my last paper yesterday.
Forest Mensuration & Survey.

Alhamdulillah, semester five : DONE ✔✔️

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I think.


I screwed up my finals.


Yes.

It was the worst. Enough said.


✋🏻

Emm, sorry to start with such depressing notes.


But yeah all good things come to an end.


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First, let’s talk about my carry mark for Pulp & Paper Technology which is not good at all. To get an A, I need to achieve 100% during finals ottokaeeeng. Ha! not a joke, man. Last time I got a full mark was during standard one, subjek pendidikan seni. 🤭

An A minus? I wish.

This cup of tea doing yoga is so cute! 

and not related at all 😂

Anyways, me, thinking that I still had a chance to get an A, I did everything I could in order to not worsen my upcoming result. I frantically tried to finish and master all the lecture notes, tutorials, past year questions and read more from the internet. (Honestly tho... it's not like I don't understand what the lecturer has been teaching this whole semester, it's just I couldn't remember anything anymore, sort of went blank T.T This actually happens to all subjects but it's very obvious when it comes to Pulp & Paper. Aaaand... I'm okay) I digested it all until I felt so wasted. 😪

Btw in the middle of my intense revisions, do you think it just went smoothly without any distraction? dear god nooooo. I kept on wanting to do stupid, inappropriate things HAHAHA (this happens all the time okies!) 🙈 p/s : please anyone, if you're free you're invited to come and give me some talks on Priorities Of Life. Tqvm.

I kept saying to myself “It’s okay Aliaa, you’ll be fine, you'll be fine. Those are just syaitonnn talking in your head. Don't listen!" and when I felt soooooo close to clean *the already clean* Blackey’s keyboard, which was very nonsense you know at that time, before study week takde pulak eh kau nak bersihkan keyboard bagai ehehe tagunee >_< (but I did the most nonsense thing during study week, so...)

I sang Hambamu chorus to myself. *jk I didn't sing! 😂 I had no intention to ruin anybody’s mood, oh heck, even the frogs would go quiet if they heard me singing! (bcos they're dead by the time I opened my mouth.)*

And I realized that the whole part was actually a doa itself. Yesss I love that song now, it’s my fight song! XD

The day before this crucial paper, me and Cuya took turns explaining each topic to each others and tbh I guess we would easily qualify to be the interim lecturers (replacing dr. Boon) for this subject ihiks  >_<  OK jk doctor if you read this, I repeat I AM JUST KIDDING. I still don’t understand why the fabric on fourdrinier machine is called wire *like I legit thinking it is that wayar yang halus tu, nothing close to something like fabric* #overthinkingsomethingsosimple #whyamIalwayslikethat??

You see guys, I could actually work well in pressure hoho. Thank God!

because I used the same stationaries
that I used during finals last semester >_<



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Otw to the exam hall on 31st December 2017, I saw this huge, black cat walking arrogantly in the rain (FREAKING WALKING IN THE RAIN!!!) and it somehow made my day. It was the cat that peed in my pail when I first came to Jeli. So yeah since he appeared to be a 'gangster' like that, I’d no gut to say anything... or open up our old story (not that I speak to any cat though but you know~) It made me looked somewhat weak holding my gray umbrella at the moment. 😐

Ok so where were we just now?

I was worrying about Pulp & Paper but alhamdulillah I slayed that one, I knew and I was confident about it. What I didn't know was that other subjects were bloody killers as well. Wood & Non-Wood Chemistry was a total badass, then Research Methodology and Forest Mensuration were kinda like Lord Voldemort + Snow White’s stepmother, and Forest Harvesting Tech. uhh not bad I guess, but still evil (evilness level : Ursula).

Only Arabic, oooh my oh my oh my~ Arabic was a PURE angel with a glowing halo! I'm gonna love you forever! 👼🏻

I really, really hope that I’ll get a grade that is bearable-for-the-eyes-to-see despite of all those terrible papers *aminn*. Allah won’t put me through all these shenanigans if they don’t bring me any good rite? I’m holding on to that.

Moving on!

I should stop posting instastories about epl now, my guy ‘friends’ kept saying hello through DM.. haishh :(

And gosh...

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHO MADE THE SCHEDULES LIKE THAT WE SERIOUSLY NEED TO TALK 😡 (both exam and football schedules). Malam exam ada game, ada game jer malam exam. Plus! I’ve just discovered a live-streaming website and it brings me no good, I swear *it tickles me writing about this tehee 🤭 I even watched other teams’ matches (read: Chelsea, Liverpool, Man City, Arsenal, Spurs). During my finals.

I'm doomed.

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My new year resolution is still the same as last year, I want to be a better person who is always guided by Him, and also a good daughter for my parents.

Also, I want to start taking a proper care of my right hand. Yeaa never mentioned about it before, but...

take a look.

Yeewwwwww aliaa why does it become like that?

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Ooo I don't knowwwww, don't eww my hand guys~

I have been suffering from this since I was in matric. Then it got worse when I entered university. I thought it's going to be okay by times, but nope. It doesn't.

And that is how it ends up now. To those who say that I do not apply the cream given by doctors, yes I don't! *do stare at Annur and Fatin if they're with me, ok?* please guys~ it only made my poor hand become even worse idk why. I already use cetaphil replacing my shower gel but it doesn’t make any change either.

And then, being in my current forestry studies doesn’t help obviously, like, I can’t tell my course mates that I can’t do this and that just because my hand is sensitive, can I? How weak will I look if I do that?! 😒 I already look so soft to them, at least lemme do some works that some girls out there can't do! *umm what is it again? lol 😂 oooh cut down a tree using a chainsaw.

I still remember that I only stopped when it hurt wayyy too much, which more often than not, involved blood. I was very cruel back then Allahu *cries* Ok so resolution number two: be good to my right hand!

Actually I have so many resolutions, but idk, I have no reason to write the long list here (unless you could help me achieve some of them, ohhh let me know 😆 hehe).

Goodbye ^^ I'm going home for my semester break kejap lagi so I don't know when will I be updating again. Gonna miss you a lot.

Pp/s : Abah and Ma will arrive in 5 minutes! See, the spoiled princess that is me does not go home by bus/taxi cause she depends on her parents to fetch her to and from uni. You can blame them for this luls, my forever favorite people in the world, nothing compares ❤