Have you ever felt scared of meeting a close friend?

It’s my roommate back in Penang Matriculation College, she came to Kelantan last week and asked me to meet up. Of course I agreed! I’ve missed all of them so much, but meeting just her is more than fine! :’)

Sorry, old photo. Guess which one is she :D

Erna is an exception so excuse her 1/3 face here hehe :P

Tbh yessss I’m quite scared of this friend; because she is that someone who loves asking other people about their mission and vision, plans in life, etc, etc... *cries* I just hate that because I don’t have those things carved in my head like some people do -,- you know~ pssh.

While waiting for her, I was sooo, sooo tired from worrying too much that even my neck felt weak to hold up my head 😭 mannn it was that serious. I mumbled some nursery rhymes that I memorized from Iskandar's mp4. Maybe it sounded like a song on a broken radio but who cares. And then she showed up. Looook at that girlllll! My sweet, sweet roommate did not change at all ^^

We met for only an hour though because princess had to be home by 7pm (plus my sister is scared to drive at night). However, instead of asking the mission, vision first (lol) 😂, she asked if I was close to any guy right now (in other words, ‘Do you already have a boyfriend?’)

How weird.

As usual, my answer would be ‘no’.

And as usual, just like all my friends who asked me the same question reacted, she asked in disbelief “Reaaaaaally?! You’re lying, right?”

Yeah yeah, whatever you think...

She told me she that had this one friend and if I was interested, she wanted to give my number to him. Oh.

Oh.

I was like ahahhahaha god noooooooo no no let’s go back to the mission and vision, shall we? They sounded way easier, no lie. Meh nak cerita plan masa depan sekali. 😂

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Me and that orange kitty never really say anything that elucidates our relationship. Wth we barely say anything at all, what am I talking about?? So, I somehow think that I am the only one who still has a crush on him.

I think I am too free now dunno why. 

We didn’t restrict others from entering our lives, did we?

I hope he didn’t.

It's just like closing all the doors around you when there might be something better waiting behind those doors. But God forbid if anything bad happens to him, I'll cry T.T

Just kidding hehe. I hardly cry for people luls 😌

Back then, it was me who sent him a friend request on Facebook. On the 10th of October four years ago. The shameless me. HAHAHA XD

I tend to do something stupid from the start danggg it.

Zac Sparrow

While I was getting ready to sleep last night, I heard my sister muttered “Nanti Zac balik esok, Anis nak berbaik dengan dia”.

Aww what a mission. I swear if my eyes were open at the moment, I’d have rolled them... until I could see my brain.

“Goodluck...” and whatever.

Bonding with little Zac Aryan ain’t easy. That’s all I can tell. He used to annoy me so many times before. Actually he still annoys me, but I learn how to ignore him and I am so proud of myself weeee! 😂

Based on what I see now, he’s really going to grow up being a mama’s boy. He won’t listen to anyone except Kakna. Dengan abah dia, dia mengada...

Do you know how he treats me?

It’s so damn sad.

He will do the opposite of what I say or he won't listen to me at all (unless I play dead when he shoots me with his toy gun. No thanks haha memang taklaa aku nak main camtu 😏).

He is so nice towards Durrani tho and she doesn’t even have to play dead...so unfair rite?

If this is a Cinderella story, Durra will be the princess and Zac is the Prince Charming (that's not charming). Zara, Zarith could be the King and Queen.

Me? Oh I have sooooo many roles XD

You know it and I don't even have to mention. Cliché ^^

P/s : harini baru celebrate birthday Zac yang dah 3 hari berlalu hekhek. Apesal aq upload gambar macam nak buat tajuk entry ni pulak -,- birthday party aa sangat...

Pp/s : I am now relying on Zayn and Iskandar to befriend with. Iskandar is still sweet. Whenever I said “Is, cepat peluk Makteh!” he would run into my arms sooooo cutely *I cry!* ... umm only if they were wide open hehe, if not he’d just come and stand so close to me until I wrap my arms around him >.< *cry again*

He will never hug first though... but it's okay we're gonna be bestfriends soon. 😊

Shortest post (?)

Assalamualaikum. 

I went to Langkawi. With my fam.

The excitement is loooong gone tho (padahal baru balik ehee). Sorry ok 😂 but here’s a lazy-edited photo of us.

Taktau nak tulis apa sebenarnya sebab aku dah hilang rasa seronok kan kan kannnnn Mkhi dah pindah ke Arsenal. Tapi dapat Sanchez. Tapi tapi tapi... Sekian. Bye bye.*annoying en 😘 

Skincar3 *pukes rainbows* routine

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

I have finished reading the sixth book of The Land Of Stories series. Now I am sad because I’m running out of fairytales to read. Sorry that’s a lie, there are a lot of fairytale books yet I am not interested to read any of them (because the authors are not well-known enough). Hihi my apology 👉👈

Anywhoooo~ tomorrow I’m going somewhere. No, not Cameron Highlands 😂 it’s somewhere else, I’ll blog about that later okay sebab tak tau lagi jadi ke tak. |(￣3￣)|

Say hi to my horror movies partner~ plus me
*when u think ur hand looks better than ur face*



And then, ohyeah I have nothing to blog about. Lol.

Can I talk about my skincare routine now? Just so I won’t have to talk about it again later on? I know I will never be the right person to talk about this buuuuuuuuut....

since this is my blog, I’ll talk about whatever I want. *stuck-up mood*

Hehe ^^ Don’t worry, don't worry I’ll just give a brief explanation (by numbers).

1. I use Cetaphil as my cleanser (twice a day - morning and night), and St. Ives Green Tea Scrub as my face scrub (twice a week, Monday and Thursday because I somehow thought that it would be better to scrub my face on the day weolls disunatkan berpuasa kekeke >_<) that’s all.
2. Moisturiser, none. But I have a bottle of aloe vera gel from Banana Boat as replacement.
3. I don’t use sunscreen. I am blessed with a skin that never got sunburnt (even when I visit the beach!) but it’s still not good to go out there bare-faced. The sun is fierce you know these days. So yeah, use sunscreen when you go out. Can’t recommend any brand because I really dunno.

Okee, done. Pfft it’s funny how they still look far from being an actual skincare routine. No toner no serum LOL but sokayy, cause I’m the one who suffers XP. I mean guys~ if I am so diligent in taking care of my face, it wouldn’t have ended up like this. Pimples would have been so scared to build their royal basecamp on my right cheek!

Ooo one more thing, I always have sheet masks with me. Not that I wear them all the time tho, but I just really, really love collecting facial masks. Maybe it's *hmmm* due to the good feeling knowing that I own them. Hehe. Tbh I don’t know, can you just play along? 😁 It’s like a girl’s thing laa~ (a.k.a nafsu) you have to own it to feel good. Like you have to own all the colours of the very same tudung to feel good. I don’t know how to explain this. LET’S DROP THE SUBJECT HERE.

All in all, it’s actually easy to take care of your skin, but practicing the routine will never be enough. I learn that we need to keep our body clean, drink loads of plain water and then avoid dairy products (I fail this one obviously). I drink milk and eat lots of chocolates and I never really care about eating anything oily/fatty/salty/sweet so... yeah. The result is as expected, no surprise.

You need to sleep well also at night. Get enough sleep! Don't be an owl like me.

The end bebeh! No 'hutang' anymore.. mihmihmih ^^

Of the cruelest being that has ever existed 🍄

How could I dedicate a lot of my sleeping times only to watch a football game? 😭

☔   ☔   ☔

That was a hanging one! Forgive me 😆

I was very noisy with my sister last night muehehhe 😂 Ma had to knock at our door twice just to tell us to sleep (and keep quiet). We were watching Mix Nine (this, ladies and gentlemen is the next reality show that will break my heart after produce 101. But I’m prepared for the heartbreak so that’s foineee~ I am rooting for Shin Ryujin and Song Hangyeom btw hehe) to burn some times until Manchester United match which was at 3.50 a.m.

Me and my sister are always noisy tbf especially when we watch horror movies. And no, it’s not because we’re busy screaming in horror, but because of our laughter. I miss watching horror movies with her XD next movies : Truth or Dare/Selfie From Hell. 😈

But by the time we were done, I felt super sleepy already. 

It’s hard restraining yourself from falling asleep when that’s what you want to do most at that time.

It was 50:50 for me. 

Either sleep or keep watching till the end.

I still watched the match. Tapi sumpah mengantuk giler >.<

Valencia’s goal was amayyyyzing aliaa you should at least clap your hands. He shot with his left foot for god's sake! Martial's goal didn't catch my attention. *but at least smile laa for the goal!* It’s not exciting anymore. Pshh.. I was tired. "Oh noooo no no I can’t sleep yet. Not till my babies are safe enough to win... not till they crush Stoke City...” ... aaaaaaaand I slowly dozed off. And then woke up in shock to find out that it’s just the start of second half. Phew~

Omigod this gal...

That moment I seriously needed some reminders to give a 'pang' to myself so I would have AT LEAST ONE REASON to sleep without feeling guilty, so I wouldn't take football match way too seriously like that.

Think!

You do almost everything to stay awake just so you won’t miss United games, is that true, Aliaa? But when it comes to ibadah for the One up above, your effort is out the window.

Is that true?

Gulp.

😭

I switched off the TV and went to sleep.

This entry will look dead plain without any picture. Nah, take this one!

P/s : next time I'll make sure I have enough sleep before staying awake for something like that :) think of my eye bags. They're huge enough to carry the kitchen sink in. 

Not attractive at all.

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Pp/s : Also, don't be too attached to the world, people.

You never know when your time will come.

You won't know that the last time is actually the last time. You think there will be more time to do everything you haven't done yet. Taubat especially.

There's a reason why we muslim say syahadah so many times, every single day in our prayer.

Because we are collecting sins all the time. Yeah... we do that T.T

You think you have forever right?

 but you don't.

We all don't.

A little bit late for new year

Assalamualaikum

Heyyo guys!

I sat for my last paper yesterday.
Forest Mensuration & Survey.

Alhamdulillah, semester five : DONE ✔✔️

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I think.


I screwed up my finals.


Yes.

It was the worst. Enough said.


✋🏻

Emm, sorry to start with such depressing notes.


But yeah all good things come to an end.


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First, let’s talk about my carry mark for Pulp & Paper Technology which is not good at all. To get an A, I need to achieve 100% during finals ottokaeeeng. Ha! not a joke, man. Last time I got a full mark was during standard one, subjek pendidikan seni. 🤭

An A minus? I wish.

This cup of tea doing yoga is so cute! 

and not related at all 😂

Anyways, me, thinking that I still had a chance to get an A, I did everything I could in order to not worsen my upcoming result. I frantically tried to finish and master all the lecture notes, tutorials, past year questions and read more from the internet. (Honestly tho... it's not like I don't understand what the lecturer has been teaching this whole semester, it's just I couldn't remember anything anymore, sort of went blank T.T This actually happens to all subjects but it's very obvious when it comes to Pulp & Paper. Aaaand... I'm okay) I digested it all until I felt so wasted. 😪

Btw in the middle of my intense revisions, do you think it just went smoothly without any distraction? dear god nooooo. I kept on wanting to do stupid, inappropriate things HAHAHA (this happens all the time okies!) 🙈 p/s : please anyone, if you're free you're invited to come and give me some talks on Priorities Of Life. Tqvm.

I kept saying to myself “It’s okay Aliaa, you’ll be fine, you'll be fine. Those are just syaitonnn talking in your head. Don't listen!" and when I felt soooooo close to clean *the already clean* Blackey’s keyboard, which was very nonsense you know at that time, before study week takde pulak eh kau nak bersihkan keyboard bagai ehehe tagunee >_< (but I did the most nonsense thing during study week, so...)

I sang Hambamu chorus to myself. *jk I didn't sing! 😂 I had no intention to ruin anybody’s mood, oh heck, even the frogs would go quiet if they heard me singing! (bcos they're dead by the time I opened my mouth.)*

And I realized that the whole part was actually a doa itself. Yesss I love that song now, it’s my fight song! XD

The day before this crucial paper, me and Cuya took turns explaining each topic to each others and tbh I guess we would easily qualify to be the interim lecturers (replacing dr. Boon) for this subject ihiks  >_<  OK jk doctor if you read this, I repeat I AM JUST KIDDING. I still don’t understand why the fabric on fourdrinier machine is called wire *like I legit thinking it is that wayar yang halus tu, nothing close to something like fabric* #overthinkingsomethingsosimple #whyamIalwayslikethat??

You see guys, I could actually work well in pressure hoho. Thank God!

because I used the same stationaries
that I used during finals last semester >_<



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Otw to the exam hall on 31st December 2017, I saw this huge, black cat walking arrogantly in the rain (FREAKING WALKING IN THE RAIN!!!) and it somehow made my day. It was the cat that peed in my pail when I first came to Jeli. So yeah since he appeared to be a 'gangster' like that, I’d no gut to say anything... or open up our old story (not that I speak to any cat though but you know~) It made me looked somewhat weak holding my gray umbrella at the moment. 😐

Ok so where were we just now?

I was worrying about Pulp & Paper but alhamdulillah I slayed that one, I knew and I was confident about it. What I didn't know was that other subjects were bloody killers as well. Wood & Non-Wood Chemistry was a total badass, then Research Methodology and Forest Mensuration were kinda like Lord Voldemort + Snow White’s stepmother, and Forest Harvesting Tech. uhh not bad I guess, but still evil (evilness level : Ursula).

Only Arabic, oooh my oh my oh my~ Arabic was a PURE angel with a glowing halo! I'm gonna love you forever! 👼🏻

I really, really hope that I’ll get a grade that is bearable-for-the-eyes-to-see despite of all those terrible papers *aminn*. Allah won’t put me through all these shenanigans if they don’t bring me any good rite? I’m holding on to that.

Moving on!

I should stop posting instastories about epl now, my guy ‘friends’ kept saying hello through DM.. haishh :(

And gosh...

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHO MADE THE SCHEDULES LIKE THAT WE SERIOUSLY NEED TO TALK 😡 (both exam and football schedules). Malam exam ada game, ada game jer malam exam. Plus! I’ve just discovered a live-streaming website and it brings me no good, I swear *it tickles me writing about this tehee 🤭 I even watched other teams’ matches (read: Chelsea, Liverpool, Man City, Arsenal, Spurs). During my finals.

I'm doomed.

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My new year resolution is still the same as last year, I want to be a better person who is always guided by Him, and also a good daughter for my parents.

Also, I want to start taking a proper care of my right hand. Yeaa never mentioned about it before, but...

take a look.

Yeewwwwww aliaa why does it become like that?

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Ooo I don't knowwwww, don't eww my hand guys~

I have been suffering from this since I was in matric. Then it got worse when I entered university. I thought it's going to be okay by times, but nope. It doesn't.

And that is how it ends up now. To those who say that I do not apply the cream given by doctors, yes I don't! *do stare at Annur and Fatin if they're with me, ok?* please guys~ it only made my poor hand become even worse idk why. I already use cetaphil replacing my shower gel but it doesn’t make any change either.

And then, being in my current forestry studies doesn’t help obviously, like, I can’t tell my course mates that I can’t do this and that just because my hand is sensitive, can I? How weak will I look if I do that?! 😒 I already look so soft to them, at least lemme do some works that some girls out there can't do! *umm what is it again? lol 😂 oooh cut down a tree using a chainsaw.

I still remember that I only stopped when it hurt wayyy too much, which more often than not, involved blood. I was very cruel back then Allahu *cries* Ok so resolution number two: be good to my right hand!

Actually I have so many resolutions, but idk, I have no reason to write the long list here (unless you could help me achieve some of them, ohhh let me know 😆 hehe).

Goodbye ^^ I'm going home for my semester break kejap lagi so I don't know when will I be updating again. Gonna miss you a lot.

Pp/s : Abah and Ma will arrive in 5 minutes! See, the spoiled princess that is me does not go home by bus/taxi cause she depends on her parents to fetch her to and from uni. You can blame them for this luls, my forever favorite people in the world, nothing compares ❤